The fries are talking. :)

Ready set go! But im still on the yellow light, meaning on the warning mode. The hard part, buses and cars were beeping, and pushing me to go..well, im not ready but I need to…need to step on the pedal to keep me going..oh no!!!

Mind setting!! Oh well its easy to say but hard to work on it. Mind works but not all the time. Like its still under renovation. Hahaha.

Second, i tryd to pray, to ask God to help me clear my mind. Im confused. Still cooking! waiting for the all the things to be well done. :)

Oh lala. Away from hell. :)))

I love my job but sometimes ul just hate it. I am looking for a little consideration or understanding or might as well emphathy. Just do your job after all they are paying you back. Talking about compensation. Oh poor me!!! They are just giving me a little penny for living but why does they demand too much. As if i owe my life to them. Or partly im wrong coz im letting them hold me on my neck and be their robot. Clap!clap! Now, ive learned to think of my self first. How about my safety and welfare first? Its also my task to take care of myself first. I dont care what people will say. I jusy want a just life.

Thanks to nay donna. My butter to my bread. i owe a lot fr you nay donna. And il miss you so badly pretty soon.

my apple ipod touch. I named it baby boo..=)

I am dreamer….lover…. And a sinner. Everyone knew I’m strong but deep within me I have a weak soul. I suffered a lot pain and unending misery from the people who wears different masks on my everyday encounter. Simultaneously dealing with them. Lord help me.
Sleepless nights that I don’t know where to start and how to end a bullshit things. I have trusted people who don’t deserve it. I had tasted the bitterness of failure. And drank
coldness of life. Everything is an uneasy joy. I think Ij need a big and tight hug. :(

To hell with people who used and hurt me.
Leaving all the bullshit things that make my life miserable.
Forgetting all the thorns that nailed me to death.
Trying to erase my stupidity from my left side of my brain.
Decided to free myself from being used. (damn!)
living my life to the fullest without any regrets.
Renewing everything that people had embarked on me,both the good and the bad things so that I could finally forget everything and will not look back to those people who ripped my heart.
I thank people who ought to be the “good”one or rather the “best pretender” of all time.
Thanks wind and time for rocking my head to reality. Thanks for the hell ride that set me free
Get a life! stop to ruin others life. Be a man.

Like I’m gonna lose my breath….
Like I’m gonna throw up…
Like I’m gonna cry a river
Like I’m gonna hang upside down
Love drags but why are they are still people into it. Countless people especially desperate ones love love. Imagine Loving without loving you back. Caring without giving you any consideration.
Hurting me a million times like it’s already your daily routine.
Love is so cruel. In love, i learned to forget myself, lowered my pride and dealt with all the things that you like and suppress what I like. I’m used to expect the least and accept the worst. I can’t complain coz there’s no one to be blamed but myself. Why does he completes me at the same time hurt me lot. Why does he infected me with lot of unknown things I can’t explain? Why does I’m always trying to avoid him but in the end I keep coming back. Its like I’ve been cursed with a deadly spell. Im so tired and sick of same old same old. I’m trying to win your heart but what you have been putting to my head that i am such a big mess. Why does its easy for you to hurt me yet hard for you to accept my bratnesss and mischievousness. It’s hard not to count on the things i already did, not because im obligating you to give me back everything but boy it’s the only thing ive been holding and be able to remember that once I’ve loved and can say that there’s lot like love.

My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer. Once i had loved a man who didn’t love me back. I was walking half asleep, too busy doing things that are not important. Insecurities paralyzed me. Sometimes love blindfolded me with so much hatred and envy. Now, its a new day and a new start. Hello reality!!!!